My
understanding is that we create and are responsible for our
own life situations. I have been doing my inner work, aligning
with Spirit and offering my creative endeavors. However, I
don't understand how one creates from Truth and Light. I seem
to keep creating problems and more of what I do NOT desire.
I recently had a heart attack at the age of 51, continue to
live in lack and feel alone. The last straw was my fiance
leaving me for another woman with money.
I am at a loss as to how to move forward. I seem to be filled
with anger and depression. Thank-you for your help.
Dear
one...The reason for your situation is that on a subconscious
level you are carrying unfinished feelings that you are unconsciously
fighting. We know this concept is frustrating for most people
on your planet. But you must all seek a process for healing
these feelings, by dealing with them directly.
For
instance, one of the reasons you are experiencing anger is
that the subconscious is using the anger to distract from
the more vulnerable feelings going on underneath. Most people
on your planet have very little knowledge of how to feel safe
with their feelings or even how to identify how what they
are feeling or resisting and how that is vital to how you
create.
In
your case, one of the most powerful feelings you fight from
the subconscious is the feeling of "deprived," something
that you have been fighting since childhood.
What
you need to realize is that when your unconscious desire to
get rid of what you do NOT want to feel or experience is stronger
than what you are moving towards, then you will create what
you do NOT want - because this is the strongest commitment.
Deprivation
is the primary feeling in your case. It comes from not having
felt that your needs were acknowledged and met as a child
- leaving you feeling deprived. In order to heal this pattern,
you need to open to have a relationship with those negative
feelings, rather than trying to get rid of them.
Otherwise
it works like this - you move away from what you do NOT want,
to avoid a feeling, which is basically making a commitment
to fighting that feeling... and the universe responds by giving
you what you want to fight (which fulfills the defensive commitment).
The
only solution is to begin to get in touch with the inner child
and actually deal with the negative feelings. The best way
is to use breath and sound to bring them up and out of the
child's initial imprints, where you had felt threatened by
the feelings you associated with certain situations. As you
bring them up now, you can experience them from an adult perspective
and see that there is no feeling that will threaten you in
any way.
The
situations from childhood revealed limitations. Your feelings
were merely your wounded reaction to what was going on....and
the adult needs to realize that you cannot change the situations
now by fighting the feelings. You can, however, change the
situations that you attract when you go inside and show the
child how to express and release the feelings that are stored
in the body from the old experiences - not from what is happening
now.
The
inner child needs to know that the way to heal them is for
you to give her permission to bring them up, to feel them,
to express/release them with deep breaths and sound, which
will release the energy and give you a nurturing experience.
This will diminish your fear and resistance over time, as
you feel and then slow down to acknowledge that there is nothing
threatening your adult reality.
One
clue that you might try is to imagine that you are sending
the energy of these feelings into the void as you make the
sound of AH....this focus and guide the energy, releasing
the charge of old fear and shame out of your body. And finally,
realize that every time you resist feeling and expressing,
you literally build more of the same fearful and shamed energy
in the tissues of your body, as well as continuing to teach
the inner child that resisting is the only choice you have.
As
you learn how to apply what we have shared more fully, you
will find the situations in your life shifting more fully
as well. Combine this with all of the ways you can imagine
to nurture yourself, so that you replace the energies you
are emptying from the subconscious with positive, nurturing
feeling experiences and imprints.
I
grew up in a dysfunctional family, so my first relationships
were of abuse, sexually from my father and emotionally from
my elder sister, combined with a lack of emotional contact
with my mother. I used to feel I was completely alone in life
and had no one to trust or turn to for help or support. Therefore,
I turned into a sickly, insecure, unexpressive and depressed
adult.
Six years ago I started a process in which I’ve been understanding
and healing on a very deep level with psychotherapy and other
alternative resources. I really have improved my physical
and emotional health. Eventhough now I feel a lot better,
I still have some health issues I don't seem to be able to
heal. The first is an eating dissorder (compulsive eating,
especially sugars). The second is in the sexual field (a general
mucosal dryness... and lack of appetite).
I am aware that the core of these problems is in the emotional
aspect, and completely related with my first relationships.
I've done a lot of work around this in therapy, and I just
don’t know what else to do. Please, give me a hint.
Abuse
is a difficult situation, dear one. Because it was a part
of your early experience from people you loved, the child
in the subconscious equates abuse with love. Therefore, the
subconscious transcends the logical self and seeks a way to
experience what is familiar. The eating disorder, as an example,
can be a way to abuse yourself.
Scientists
did an interesting experiment with rats, who learned their
way through a maze to get to the nurturing and food. Eventually
the scientists introduced a painful shock in the middle of
the maze. The rats still wanted to get to the food and nurturing,
so they learned to endure it. Day after day they turned up
the shock and the rats continued in the pattern. One day they
decided to turn off the shock. The rats reached this point
in the maze and got lost and eventually died while in search
of the pain they now associated as being necessary before
they could connect to the nurturing food.
There
are many layers to wounding patterns, but this is an important
place to explore with your inner child - to make sure you
are clear with the child and work through the percentages
of attachment to the child's misunderstanding.
The
sexual dysfunction is in many ways about not feeling that
you deserve to have pleasure on a subsconsious level. This
is often the case with abuse energy. There is also a great
deal of unresolved anger that must be dealt with, so that
you can be free layer by layer. As you show up fot this nurturing
of self from the inside out, you will learn to champion yourself.
You
may very well need to do this work with a therapist who understands
how to process feelings very directly...
In
the meantime, we suggest you use a couple of exercises, wich
create holographic movement. Your pelvis and throat are built
up quite a lot with energetic armoring. The pelvis is where
you all hold a lot of your abuse memory and energy. The throat
blockages comes from the learned pattern of having to block
the expression of your needs. As you do these exercises, you
can teach your nervous system the adult reality that your
needs are equal to every one else.
And
as you also choose specific ways to nurture yourself, you
will be able to let go of sugar as an artificial way to compensate
for the remembered lack of nurturing. The eating has also
been a way to stuff feelings with the gratification and a
way that you learned you could 'control' something.
The
sexual dryness comes from a fear of being hurt, fearful that
you will not be able to say no or set boundaries. You need
to practice expressing boundaries. As you do, your nervous
system will begin to recognize mutual value and that you can
be safe enough to open up to deeper connections. Your body
will then begin to welcome connection.
The
first exercise is to move energy in the pelvis. Lie on the
floor on pillows or a mattress. Bend your knees and put your
feel flat on the floor. As you breathe in, raise your pelvis
off the mattress. Breathe deeply into the solar plexus...
As you then let go of the air (with the sound of AH), drop
your pelvis onto the mattress. The combination of the shake
up (hitting the soft surface) and the expulsion of air, you
will begin to release the blockages.
We also remind you that you must develop a process of dealing
directly with your feelings. As you release the energy that
is held in the pelvis, you need to nurture and release the
feeling memories that need to come up into your adult reality.
It is a beautiful opportunity for you to show up for the child,
to show her that she is safe to finally share and release
any feelings that have not felt safe to come up before.
One
way that you can assist this emotional release is with the
second exercise. Simply lie on a mattress again. As you breathe
deep into the body, begin to use the legs and arms to hit
the mattress, much like a child throwing a tantrum. As you
do this, you will help to break up the energy held in the
body, again using breath and sound to release feelings.
Reassure
the child that is it is okay to deal with these feelings...
Bring her to your present adult reality. And again, if you
feel you need help to work through these feelings, get a therapist
who knows how to deal with feelings and work with the bioenergetics
of wounding.
In
2006 I went to England to get my reiki mastership and had
my attunements done in a crop circle. Since then I use the
crop circle energy with my reiki. On 5/11/07, I used the cropcircle
energy to assist someone to transition. On that same day a
cropcircle appeared in my town. We have never had a crop circle
appear here before. I want to ask Gabriel what my connection
to cropcircles are and the signifance of this circle appearing
on this day.
We
would say that this was a confirmation from the universe that
you are powerfully connecting to your authentic roots. You
see, crop circles are a form of communication through sacred
geometrics from various star systems. They are awakening the
powerful imprints of these geometrics to awaken to various
forms of awareness of the soul plan for your planet in this
new millennium. For you, it is a confirmation that you are
on the correct path.
Every
one on the planet is from a particular one of 12 star systems.
In short, this was a confirmation from your particular star
system, so continue on this path and trust your awakenings.
I am now 67 years old and have been placing a potential partner
in the Light for a very long time. Over the years I have had
readings about this unfulfilled wish. Some say I don't have
karma in the relationship area; others say in a past life
I made a vow; while others say my vibratory rate is high and
men don't see me... In short, none of this has helped me.
Gabriel, I am focused on my spiritual growth and yet feel
a desire to have a marriage relationship. Any assistance in
this quest would be appreciated.
There
may very well be relationship karma, as you all have karma
from previous lives in your present life challenges. But that
does not mean that you cannot have a relationship. It merely
means that the challenge was chosen in this lifetime and the
keys to the solution can be found in your childhood setups.
Look at those primary relationships and the patterns in those
relationships.
We
think that perhaps you will find a strong imprint with your
father, that somehow you are protecting him...and the subconscious
is not allowing you to be available to other relationships.
This is because the child misunderstands that she a new relationship
will compete or betray your relatonship to your dad. This
may not make sense to your adult logic, we understand.
It
is a subconscious feeling that the child has determined must
be protected, even if it is destructive to your adult reality.
We feel there is a blockage about protection. And it can be
that much more confusing that she is working to preserve a
relationship that was not completely satisfying in the first
place...but we feel that the child is attempting to attract
a deeper relationship to the father. Look and see if there
is any truth for you.
You
all need to understand that any conflicts that you are having
stems from distortions held in the subconscious. And they
are ALL held in place from unresolved feelings and the ability
to identify what you actually need. These are some clues for
you to begin to break your patterns...and open yourself energetically
to having the intimacy that you say you want in your life.
It will stem from the intimacy that you build with yourself.
You
already told me that I had been drawn and quartered in a previous
lifetime in Spain. I had assumed that this was during the
Inquisition. However, while in Spain I found out that most
people were burned during the Inquisition. Could you please
give me further clarification about this lifetime?
While in Spain I realized how much I felt at home there.
I
also have a burning and pressue in my solar plexus, mostly
on the right side, but it also travels underneath my heart
and to the left. Is this due to my upcoming move back to the
US or does it also have something to do with this past lifetime?
Thank you very much for any guidance you can give me at this
time.
The
past life in Spain was during the Inquisition...but your specific
situation involved the military. As far as the pain in your
solar plexus is concerned, there is a lot of memory connected
to Spain and the lifetimes there. Those feelings are now attempting
to rise and be resolved.
You
can use some of the prior exercises we have mentioned in the
other questions to move the energy of your feelings and resolve
what is held in the subconscious. The reason that the pieces
are able to begin coming together is that the body contains
holographic memories...particularly emotional memories.
Your
particular situation dealt with your situations and struggles
with power. The solar plexus is also the power center of the
lower self. The right side have to do with your struggle to
assert your power, taking responsibiltiy for different issues
that are again rising. Many of those situations were incomplete
in that lifetime and the stored feelings still pull you in
an attempt to get you to resolve these inner feelings. That
is how powerfully you must all deal with the wounded feelings
of your histories. You hold your entire soul memory, that
wants to finally be resolved. The energies that are now awakening
are high enough to bring these denser energies to the surface,
but you all need to develop a true nurturing process that
deals with your feelings directly.
I have lived in South and Southwest Florida for 20 years,
and as of late I have been experiencing major over-heated
symptoms, whereby I feel as though I may pass out, my third-eye
and parietal sutures on the topside of my cranium experience
headache, and all my nerve-endings seem to come up to the
surface. Then I cry to release whatever is being purged from
the system. I drink plenty of water and Emergen-C throughout
the day, every day (for 20 years); always hydrating.
I
strongly feel this is a further burning off of 'old' patterns,
imprinting and programming, enhanced by the work I have been
doing with a guided CD from Patricia Cota-Robles CD, entitled
Physical Transformation. However, I would love to once again
resume outdoor activities, such as running, biking, golfing,
etc., without this sensation occurring. Please help.
When
you do these kinds of meditations, it raises the body's temperature
as it raises the vibration and frequency. It also activates
the axiotonal system on the skin, creating symptoms such as
heat and burning.
We
suggest that you personally tend to build mental energy in
the head, from a great deal of mental focus and analyzing.
When you do this, you cause the accumulation of blocks that
are already held there from early patterning and choices...
We
suggest that you do two things - (1) stop using that tape
for a time and (2) deal with your feelings more directly -
rather than spending so much time in your mental energy. When
you don't have a process for dealing with the feelings and
your stir them up with meditations, the energy ends up building
or accumulating in the body, rather than releasing. We hope
that this will help in some way.
I
have worked with energy healing for some time now and in the
process have been around and intentionally included crystals
and various stones. Some of these stones over time become
cracked and lost their color. I have some beautiful Rose Quartz
that has been outside on a shrine in all sorts of weather
for several years and it had remained as colorful as the day
it was placed there. Lately that phenoninom (cracks and loss
of color) has been accelerated. I have received much speculation
about it, but nothing that resonates. I am very interested
to hear what you have to say.
Crystals
inherently move at various rates of vibration, depending on
their color and other properties. Over time, as energy passes
through the crystal, it can become clogged. When more energy
attempts to move through, it can stress the crystal, creating
cracks and a dissipation of the color that held the neutral
inherent energy originally in the crystal.
We
suggest that you use your intention to clear them. You can
also put them in salt water to assist in the salt soaking
up the denser, accumulated energy.
You
also need to realize that crystals are rising now in their
vibration, based on the effects of the Photon Belt causing
such an acceleration of things on your planet. When these
new energies rise beyond what the crystal can handle at a
particular time, it can also create cracking. For instance,
this takes place when you take them into sacred sites sometimes,
exposing them to higher energies. This stress is usually caused
by the accumulated dense energies they have been collecting.
And
keep in mind that this is also reflected in how your bodies
are all being affected with the assimilation of the Photon
Belt as well. And the need for you to clear the dense, emotional
energy collected there. Otherwise your "cracks"
and dissipation of energy becomes reflected in fatigue, deeper
resistance and even dis-ease.
I
have a question concerning our young son Frederic who is turning
four years in October. Though we had his eyes checked last
year, in this year's check we found out that his left eye
hardly sees anything. This physical defect existed already
last year but was not realised by the examination methods
applied then.
I wonder what the source of this physical problem can be.
Does it result out of his short life, or is it a “left-over”
from past lives, or does it relate to past generations of
our families, or is it part of his fate and duties? He had
also been choked very heavily in his kindergarten-group, why?
Finally, why are we only finding out now and not last year?
We are now looking for the best medical support we can get.
Is there anything besides classical medication and osteopathy
we can do to support his healing?
The
problem with your son's eye comes from a spiritual essence
and soul lesson, as he continues facing a challenge that he
has carried from past lives and karmic patterns. This mainly
concerns the left aspect of his being, the receptive and spiritual
side - giving him a challenge to receive that which is present
and available. This is a challenge from past lives. It may
seem obvious to others, but is not seen clearly by him.
He
also chose your family pattern because it has a similar challenge
and supports his need to look at this particular pattern.
There are ancient family systems that say, "if I divert
myself from the usual way of seeing things, it will be dangerous
for me." His experience in kindergarten has played a
part of this pattern.
These
imprints of stress and defense in the body are causing a strain
on that eye. There is a tension and an anticipation of "what
will happen to me if I introduce something new into the system."
The
way to help is to support him with love, guidance and encouragement
to accept and express himself as an individual, so that he
can grow to trust that safety and love are possible within
his individual experience.
